Goodbye My Boy....
I'm usually pretty strong. I am a no bullshit kind of girl who frankly sometimes pushes people away. But I am having a really rough day today. Cause my whole world is getting turned upside down for the next couple of months... Because my son is going away to Vermont tomorrow.
He's a grown man, sure, but he is still my kid. I know that I will be worrying about him making his flight connections and will his luggage get lost... and if something happens he is 2500 miles away... It's rough. But there is an upside - he will be back!
And this is where I turn into proud mama bear, because when he returns this summer he will be getting ready to start the fall semester at Mesalands Community College. For him this is a big deal. He is a smart kid, so I know that he will do awesome. But he has some anxiety issues when meeting new people, so I know it will be rough for him - but he is doing it which is such a big step for him.
I will probably hold it together until the plane taxis down the runway. But until then I am pulling a card to get me through. Using the Tarot of Dreams by Ciro Marchetti, I drew the 4 of Wands.
He's a grown man, sure, but he is still my kid. I know that I will be worrying about him making his flight connections and will his luggage get lost... and if something happens he is 2500 miles away... It's rough. But there is an upside - he will be back!
And this is where I turn into proud mama bear, because when he returns this summer he will be getting ready to start the fall semester at Mesalands Community College. For him this is a big deal. He is a smart kid, so I know that he will do awesome. But he has some anxiety issues when meeting new people, so I know it will be rough for him - but he is doing it which is such a big step for him.
I will probably hold it together until the plane taxis down the runway. But until then I am pulling a card to get me through. Using the Tarot of Dreams by Ciro Marchetti, I drew the 4 of Wands.
 | This is actually an awesome card to pull. It talks about celebration of home/family and stability. That ties in pretty well with the going away party that we are throwing for him - all about the cake baby! What I like most about this deck though is the representation of a door opening up. It symbolizes to me a new chapter opening up in our lives. I need to accept that he is becoming a man, and embrace this new adventure. hmm, feeling a little better already! |